behind the song
Feel The Sun
So I danced, held hands with all my shadows And I cried, just to feel the rain
I wrote Feel The Sun when I finally found a place in my life of true happiness. I spent so much of my life feeling pain and sadness that I began to find comfort in it. I began to fear all the good life can bring because it was unfamiliar. And at times, I thought of it as a feeling I would never receive. “He said you’ll start to hate the cold, when you finally feel the sun” is a powerful line for me. This line refers to significant other because after meeting him, I truly started to accept the fact that I could be loved. Breaking down further; the cold represents the pain I have grown to accompany too the sun represents all of the joy and light that the world has to offer.
Understanding that concept changed everything for me.
This song represents the moment in my life that I stopped fighting off all of the good that was trying to break down my walls.
Olive Green
“You can’t be sad right now, you’re the happy one.”
I’ve heard that over and over again. And while being the “happy one” sounds positive, it comes with its own weight. I spent so much of my life setting my own struggles aside so I could be available for everyone else. And as much as I truly love being that comfort for others, I found myself quietly wishing for someone—or something—that could give me that same feeling in return.
Olive Green represents my happy place. I was lucky enough to meet someone who gave me the space to not only be happy, but to feel all the beautiful and complex emotions that make us human. I also found my “Olive Green” in things like writing music, working out, and other parts of my life that ground me.
Life has so many outlets that allow us to become our fullest selves. It just takes a little searching—and you can find your Olive Green too. Because we all deserve that.
Chapter 10
See i've learned a lot I think ive got the upper hand Cuz everything I aint - made me everything I am
I remember being younger and always wishing to grow up—counting down the days to milestones like driving, getting married, and having my own house. I became so focused on when and how those “big moments” would happen that I forgot to enjoy the journey.
Because of that, when I failed my first driving test, thought I had met “the one” more than once, or even when I finally moved out and was just trying to afford an iced coffee before work, I felt like I was falling short.
Chapter 10 reflects my growth. “You stay skipping chapters babe, I’ll stay flipping pages” speaks to those who chase only the big moments instead of appreciating everything in between. It’s about learning to embrace the unknown and trust that everything unfolds for a reason.
This song is a reminder to slow down. When you think you’ve failed, keep reading—because the beauty is always on the next page.